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/ Rest in peace popo Tuesday, March 8, 2011 / 11:41 PM

I see no bright future for my fyp.

Lost my handphone on my first day of fyp.
Lost my popo on my second day.

Popo is my father's mother, in order words, my grandmother.
I was never really close with her.
Cause i never live with my parents.
Neither did she lived with my parents.
She used to be more energetic and healthier when i was young.
But that was when i WAS young.
The amount of memories that i have, of her being healthy, in my mind is zero.
The moment i start to remember things, to have memories, she is not so healthy already.
She was senile, have 老人痴呆阵症.
Seriously, i have never heard her calling my name properly before, she always tend to forget our names, especially mine cause i met her for the shortest time.
She moved to my uncle's house for last than a year before she was being moved to elderly home cause everyone has to work so nobody is able to take care of her.
We will visit her a few times in a year, especially during CNY.

Before this year's CNY, dad told us that she could be leaving us anytime cause the doctor asked him to prepare himself as her condition has worsen.
We went to visit her during CNY.
She looked much better than previous.
And we were really relieved.
But suddenly everything got worse and now she's gone.
I am fine at first, but hearing that my dad cried in the morning, seeing my sis crying, and i saw her in the coffin.
The moment was wtf but she is smiling.
And i know i have to be strong.
Teared and wiped.
I used to be afraid of walking near the coffin area.
Cause i am a timid person, like always.
But today i stepped beside the coffin bravely and sat beside her alone.
Thinking of her smile,
I know she left peacefully.
All of us agreed that it is a form of relieved for her.
No more getting stuck in the bed not being able to move,
No more forgetting our names,
No more suffering,
No more pain.

Rest In Peace Popo.
Where ever you are, i hope you are happy and healthy there.
Loves.


.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT



Hi. Welcome to the World of Alodie.
I am a big girl, not yet a young woman.
I believe that people use two ways to talk.
Via mouth, Via heart.
I am a happy girl who is not so happy at times.
Then I rant and go crazy.
And this is where i keep all my rantings.
Appreciate it or exit.
Bye Bye
x.o.x.o