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/ song stuck in my head

2012-01-08T01:26:00.003+08:00

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2012-01-01T22:28:00.001+08:00

Check up the last remark on my wishlist!
Huat ah!
Oh yea i finally can graduate (Y)
Can collect my cert soon, finally hahahaha.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ 2012

2012-01-01T22:17:00.003+08:00

Hello everybody!
It's been awhile...
And now its... 2012!!!
A year with very big danger of ending the world. LOL
Idk if i believe it or not.
Anyways although life may have a lot of trouble but i still think that life would be better without ending the world.

New year resolutions!
Almost all of my 2011's resolutions failed HAHAHAHAHA
2012 Resolution
- World to be a better world, but there's nothing much that i can do about that
- Stop gaining weight, i don't feel like losing weight although i am still fat, i just wanna maintain like that LOL
- Find a nice job
- Earn money, be richer
- Do well in dance, more improvements
OK that's it. Hahahaha

I'll come back soon :D

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-10-02T16:21:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i don't know how to live in this family or world anymore.
I got no looks, no talent, no brain, no family.
I hate living in this place where people called home, feeling insecure every time
I get paranoid whenever my stuffs are being placed at a different location
I'm like that not because i am always like that
It's because some bloody china man keep entering my room without my permission
And taking my stuffs
Blame me for being paranoid if you want to, but if it was your room
You will know how i feel
Having no one supporting me at home is the best part of my life
I just want someone to help me
But apparently they chose the outsiders
I really wish that i have more courage
So that i could just end everything at one time
I don't care about how anybody feel, everyone's selfish
But i just know that i really don't think that i can take it anymore
I tried to be nice, too bad, trying is nothing
I am going crazy soon.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-09-14T21:24:00.004+08:00

Have been pretty busy this few days.
Or few months, i should say.
Didn't have time or energy to really update here.
Well.

Anywayssssssssssss.
My FYP is over. YES!
My last exam paper for my last module is over. YES!
I've finally joined my first waacking battle during July. YES!
Now clearing my attachment. YES!
I am turing 21 tomorrow. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I dont wanna be old. Sad

Anyways.
My 21st birthday celebration was...
Hmmmm.
I didn't managed to really organise something, like chalet, in the end.
So yea.
The celebration at home with family was pretty awesome.
Though it feels a bit awkward but its good to see the old people at home having fun.
Lol.
The celebration with my secondary school mates was good too.
Its been a long time since i last saw them.
So i had fun too.
Received greeting from Jin and Scott from Tekong.
Very happy, very relieved. Best buddies.
And ya thats all.
I've learned a very good experience this 21st birthday.
I dont know how to explain it though. Hmmmm

I wish for a good tomorrow, which is my actual birthday.
And wish for family and true friends to be there.
Look forward to Saturday outing with beibei, like finally.
See if can find time to meet our FSC funky scotty or not also.
Hahahaha.

Well, welcome to my lousy 21st birthday.
Its good but...
For something that i always looked forward to, since young.
Its not that good.
:>

PS: Or maybe i am just being an ass.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random talk

2011-07-20T15:22:00.002+08:00

It has been quite some time since i last blogged.
And *ding ding*.
I'm at the 14th week of my fyp wooohoooo!!
One more week to clear wahahahha!!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life of poor people

2011-06-29T15:38:00.004+08:00

Though money ain't everything.
But money really stand a very big part of our lives.
Something that i realised recently.
Poor people will not have a nice, good and fun 21st birthday party.
Because no money cannot get a good place, cannot get good food.
Poor people will not have new, good, usable stuffs.
I am forever one step behind others, its not that i wanna keep up with any trend or what.
Its just that I just want my stuffs to be usable to me.
Laptop super old already plus got virus cannot clear,
But still cannot get a new one.
Phone lost dont know for how long already,
But still cannot get a new replacement.
School fee need to pay already,
Still need to think here, think there.

It's hard for rich people to get true friends.
But it's harder for poor people to get real friends if you ain't cool either.
Life.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random talk

2011-06-24T14:26:00.001+08:00

I just wanna say..
I miss blogging frequently.
But im lazy :D

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ note to self

2011-06-20T09:59:00.004+08:00

Alodie ah
Wake up on time ah
Don't be late for fyp le
Don't miss any fyp too
You got no more money to cab already
Your supervisors are killing themselves anytime
Your father don't have money to pay for your school fees liao
Bu yao dui bu qi ta men
Faster get over with this fyp
Then get over with attachment
Faster graduate
Don't let other people kan bu qi

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ xin guang

2011-05-29T17:20:00.003+08:00

Ok last thursday my sis told me that she saw a 星光 advertisement.
They having oversea audition, which is in Singapore.
She asked me to go, i was afraid but i went to look for the details.
Cause i thought it would be quite interesting to try out.
I have no idea why they wanna make it so secretive,
I totally cannot find any news about it lol.
Then today i woke up at 4pm, saw my sms from Dion at 2pm,
Telling me that the auditions are today!
Lol, apparently i talked to him before and told him that i might wanna try.
K, first in my life time, i bathed, dry my hair, make up done within less than an hour.
The moment i wanna step out off my house.
I called Diane who is already there queue-ing.
Then she said that the auditions are over already.
Ok sad.
Need to wait one more year.
来的很突然，去的跟快

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ madness part 2

2011-05-29T03:20:00.010+08:00

Remember to read part 1 first.

Anyway.
Maybe i am a racist person, or maybe i am not.
But one thing for sure, i am starting to get disgusted by ah tiongs more.
Not because of the ladies who keep their armpit hairs untouched, i dont give a damn.
But because of the ah tiongs around me.
Wanted to rant about this from dont know how long ago.
Then i thought that it would be a bit not good, not appropriate, not healthy to do so.
Afterall, this is still a "family" problem.
IF i even regard them as part of the family, but obviously, i DON'T.
I should start the story off with point forms first:

✖ Aunt have a ah tiong female friend who started living in our house 4/5 years(or more?) back
✖ She gave a lot of shits at first but apparently my aunt still sides her blindly because they claim that she is a GUEST, but well i feel that she treats this place pretty much like her home
✖ All the shits she made were pushed to me. I fought back. I ended up "bleeding", she remained unharmed.
✖ 2/3 years back, we became better, i start to communicate with her, her bad non-hygenic(if you know what i mean, or if you dont) habits gone (Y)
✖ Few months back she got married in her hometown, the tiong world, then bought a flat at the west side which is much bigger and nicer than ours
✖ After marriage she still stays in our house, without her husband and with her parents living alone at her house, i dont know why
✖ She used to stay in the same room as my aunt, and now when she's married she is still staying in the same room as my aunt
✖ Ok then not long after her marriage, her husband starts to come over and stay at our house, with their parents living alone at their west side house still, and with my aunt sleeping in the same room with them BUT they took her bed and she slept on the floor
✖ Hello she is 60 already.
✖ After like dont know how long, they finally moved back, i felt peaceful (super)
✖ Few weeks ago, she got pregnant
✖ I dont know why, she starts to come back and sleep again, with her husband
✖ This time round, my aunt was being chased OUT of her own room into my another aunt's room and on the floor again
✖ Then they "took" over her room and her bed

Seriously i felt unfair for my aunt, i felt pissed with them
✖ There are a few times i saw my aunt walking around doing nothing, she used to stay in her room and play mahjong, now she walks around like a zombie cannot do anything. I can see that she wants to enter her room but she didnt.

The ah tiong male happily eating all the food at our home.
✖ I am more of a POOR person than a petty person. There are snacks that are expensive to us and we dont usually buy cause we felt that it is a waste of money.
✖ My sis just gotten married and she moved out, so now she treat us very well. She bought like Royce for us. One for me, one for my mom.
✖ My mom has never eaten a Royce chocolate before.
✖ The ah tiong man ate mine when i went to the toilet. When i came out of the toilet, my another aunt actually OFFERED him my mother's packet cause she saw that empty packet(mine) on the table, like as if he is the god of dont know what. I screamed all the way from the toilet entrance to the living room. I know i might sound greedy, but im not. He never even fucking asked me when he took mine and now he wanna take my mother's packet too?
✖ Is this even his home? No.
✖ He got embarrassed, i supposed, then he rejected it bu shuang-ly.
✖ OK then there is this time i bought sweets back from Taiwan for my mom. Cause i know that she like this kind. So i bought like 2 packets, 1 for me and 1 for mom. Apparently mine was finishing and i left it on the living room. I went back to my sit in the living room, he sat behind me then he started taking them and eat without asking. But i thought that it is fine since he took a few nia. After that when my mom walked over, he told my mom, 你要吗, 这个很好吃, 那天我在这里吃了几个, 很好吃. So he actually 吃了几个, i dont know 几个, but i know that it is without asking again. Being a guest? He is definitely not like one, so he doesnt deserve the guest treatments.
✖ Then my mom, acting like a maid, told me that she saw another packet on my luggage. So i told her that i bought that packet specially for her. Idk why they so afraid of the ah tiongs. She immediately forced me to give him like more than 3/4 of the new packet. Wtf la. If i knew earlier, i dont even wanna buy the extra packet le.
✖ These are NOT the only times, there are many times i see him happily enjoying our foods and treating himself like home.
✖ And hello? He even asked my house's lao zabors, all my aunties to help them buy food. They think we what? Maids? I dont fucking give a damn to him man.

All thanks to them, starting from 2(?) years back, our CNY Tuan Yuan Fan is no longer tuan yuan.
✖ Every CNY day 1 at night, all my cousins will definitely come here and all of us will eat our dinner together
✖ Especially this few years that we rarely have like all 7 of us together eating dinner
✖ Cause we have 2 kitchens, so every year the "kids" will stay at one table and the adults will stay at another. All of us will eat at the same time.
✖ Then an ah tiong invasion started 2 years ago, when the both of them brought their parents AND their friends with 1 kid over to eat.
✖ All thanks to them, GUESTS big what.
✖ All of us started to think like who to eat first, who to wait cause we dont have enough seats.
✖ Obviously all of us, the kids, hates the ah tiongs, cause they never even give angbao but they give a lot of troubles. Then my aunties started to ask us to eat first at the other table.
✖ Apparently idk why, ah tiongs appetite VERY big. They ended up finishing the rice. Most of our lao ren jia have no food to eat. My aunt have to recook rice. And must wait until the ah tiongs eat finish already then they can eat, eat their LEFTOVERS lo. As i said earlier on, their appetite VERY big, so the lao ren jias also dont have much ingredients left.
✖ A tuan yuan fan that i used to look forward to, is totally ruined, all thanks to them again..

And a NEWLY updated, FRESHLY updated news of TODAY.
A very fucked up one.
I am very manly i admit, but i am still a female bitch.
I dont know if that is called brave.
But today he bravely came to talk to me.
He asked me where is my samsung charger.
And "wow" he actually knows that i have samsung charger when i never even show him my phone or my charger before.
Anyway.
Then i told him that i dont know cause i am using my spare phone (nokia) now.
Guess what he says.
He said he saw it somewhere in my room the other time.
SO HELLO HE ACTUALLY WENT INTO MY ROOM WITHOUT MY PERMISSION AND WITHOUT ME KNOWING BEFORE?!
Then i told him that i never use samsung anymore so i have no idea about that charger.
Guess what he says again.
He told me that he actually TOOK it from my room and USED it before and left it somewhere and now that it is GONE, so he came to ask me.
And if i am not wrong, i heard him saying very softly "你是不是把它收起来啊".
FYI, why the fuck i even hide my chargers when i dont even know that he is actually using it.
But of course if i know that i would.
And obviously i have lost my samsung phone for dont know how long already.
So for what i still use that charger sia, i dont even give a damn about it.
The whole point about him entering my room without my permission is already fucking rude.
And now he even touches, take, and use my stuffs without my permission.
So hello again, am i supposed to lock everything up now even when i am at home?
I don't feel safe anymore.
Even leaving my money on my table for like awhile, i also will scared.

Tmd, this is no longer a home.
It is a ah tiong hostel.
I can never speak up to them.
Cause i know, they look down on me.
Things that i do is wrong, things that the ah tiongs did even worse than me is right.
I no longer know what is wrong or right.
I just feel that this house doesnt have the feel of home anymore.
No matter how much i used to dislike my family, i still love my home.
But now, idk.
Some times i really dont understand why my aunties have to take them in.
There is nothing much i can say though.
If you think that working with ah tiong is worse,
Try staying with 2.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ madness part 1

2011-05-29T02:57:00.003+08:00

I seriously feel that i am going crazy anytime.

The thought of i am home when everyone is awake is crazy.
Cause an argument can break out anytime.

The thought of my room is just like a second store room or worse, is crazy.
Cause now i dont even feel secure at home.

Recently because of my back pain, i went home earlier to rest.
Or stayed at home the whole day.
But people always start to find trouble with me when im at home.
Maybe because they miss me too much?
To the extent that even when i wanna help out, i also kena big time.
Or when i just wanna rest awhile more because because i am really tired, and like finally got one day to rest longer, unlike other days, needa wake up very early for FYP.
Sucks ttm.

This is not the worse part yet.
Ok i think i shall leave one post for the worse part.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ conclusion

2011-05-24T23:16:00.004+08:00

Ok very long never update already.
So i'm gonna say something that i have concluded today.

Never try to geh kiang and be one good girl.
Never try to stay at home the whole day or go home earlier just because you want to rest.
Cause when you want to rest,
Your family members will fuck you up.
And with all those shits and sarcastic, look-down-on-you kind of smile.
It will destroy your whole fine day.

Don't blame me on seeing me only once a week.
Blame yourselves.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random thoughts

2011-05-15T01:07:00.003+08:00

Recently i got a lot of thing to say and complain.
But idk where to start from and i am just too lazy.
Oh well~
Anyway.
It is very sweet to see happy new couples.
Very xin fu.
Hahahahahaha.
PS: Don't think too much, read the title of the post.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ dance meets funk

2011-05-15T01:00:00.005+08:00

Hooohoooo!!
Just came back from Dance Meets Funk Vol.1 !
What should i say.
Hmph.
DJ really plays an important part in a battle.
Hahaha.
As simple as it is.
Anyway.
This is the first time that i joined a 3v3 battle.
Funk battle.
And this is the first time i battled using Waacking.
Well, but it is not a waacking battle afterall.
Look forward to my august.
Huat ah!!
Heard that there will be a Waackdown too,
But next year LOL!!
Look forward to that too HAHAHAH.
Jiayou Waacking!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ part of it? no?

2011-05-12T11:34:00.000+08:00

Things seem to have changed lately.
A lot of feelings that people used to have are different now.
The feeling of i'm there because you all need 1 extra person is really not that good.
I may think a lot, but that's not fully my fault.
I just wish that things ain't that complicated.
And things will turn fine.
Huat ah (Y)

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ august

2011-05-10T10:29:00.002+08:00

Looking forward to my August.
Last Saturday after Fuyo and video shoot for Dance Meets Funk.
Went back on cab with Jin, Cherron and Melissa.
Then Melissa told me that there will be a waacking battle in August wakakakka.
And the invited guest is.....
TYRONE "THE BONE" PROCTOR.
WOOHOOOOO!!
He is one of the founders of Waacking.
Super excited.
Look forward to my August.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ foreign bodies

2011-05-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

Suddenly got a lot of Open classes sia.
Good.
Got Popping, though its already opened for quite some time.
Got Street Jazz, though it breaks my body.
Got Lyrical Partner work, something that i have never done before and look i forward to.
Got Waacking, coming soon, love it.
Hahahahhaaha.
So shiok.
It is always good to share.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random events

2011-05-04T14:17:00.001+08:00

I ate maggots.
Unknowingly.
From south canteen malay food stall tsk.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-05-03T09:49:00.011+08:00

Ok something very shocking and unexpected.
I GOT INTO SOUND CARD!!!
LOL!!
Really shocked that i got in because the whole thing came quite randomly.
I was about to go home that day then i chose to go block E smile awhile.
Apparently soundcard was having their auditions that day.
A lot of FB people went for it, and so they asked me if i want to go together too.
Hahahahha, and so i went. LOL.
Dion and Benezer made it through the auditions too!! Hahahhaa
Really wanted to learn singing from don't know how long ago.
IDK how i got in, cause i think my voice is cui.
And i only managed to sing 1 verse during the auditions.
But since i have the chance now, i think i will go for it.
And if any of my major dance practice happens to clash with my singing practices.
I think i will go for dance still.
Afterall i sitll love Foreign Bodies.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ get down

2011-05-03T09:49:00.010+08:00

Hokay!
Get Down Vol.4 is over yesterday.
Very fun, very fun.
Lots of cheering, shout until my throat cui.
I got into top 16.
Thought i was gonna to die at audition or top 32.
But i still made it into the top 16.
Didn't expected it and i felt good.
Wasn't feeling good yesterday.
Headache really aches me up.
Especially during the last battle i almost died on the stage.
But still managed to survive through ahhahaha.
Really happy about my battles, though i didn't make it like really far.
Felt that something is really different this time.
IDK what wass it, but it felt good hahhahaa.

Congrats to those who have done well.
Happy for the juniors who stepped out bravely.
Especially to Haqem who has got into the top 2.
His actions are really funny and shocking, super entertaining.
Well well.
Let's jiayou all together again next time!!
HUAT AH!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random events

2011-04-30T16:37:00.003+08:00

2 years of FBodz life.
I finally learned how to do a reject yesterday.
HHAHAHAHAH

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-04-25T16:24:00.004+08:00

Did something quite crazy yesterday.
Went to soundcard's audition with my crazy bunch of FB people.
HAHAHHAHA.
Everyone started to train singing @ block E instead of dancing.
Rare, eeeeery and interesting sight.
It will quite interesting though.
Doubt i will get in.
But i had fun :D

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-04-25T16:24:00.002+08:00

I'm back to the every-day-must-wake-up-early kind of life.
Back to FYP.
Very quickly, it is already the second week.
Cause last week is really purely slacking.
Club crawl marks a very nice ending last week.
Congrats to those who are selected to be in FB committee.
Congrats to those who are NOT selected too.
Pro and cons.
I prefer the way that i've got.
More freedom hahahaha.
Ok no more.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ mdm wong's shelter

2011-04-22T01:16:00.003+08:00

Oh yea eggcited!
Cherron needs to do some project on charitable organization.
She's gonna work on Mdm Wong's shelther.
And (Y),
I am going with her and Jin tomorrow waakakakkaa.
Shall go there and take a look.
And if i really got time,
Maybe i would go there and be a volunteer (Y).
Huahuahuahauhua!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ aries' month

2011-04-21T00:55:00.003+08:00

Celebrated lots of Aries babies' birthday this year.
6 Aries babies i think.
4 of the celebrations were at Taiwan during the Max Party trip.
1 is my laojie, her 26th.
Lastly Scott.
The funniest one. LOL.
We went to cold stone to eat ice cream cause he asked for it.
The people there made him stand on the table in front of the counter, in front of the queue.
Then they sang him a birthday song, a very funny and interesting one.
And they made him catch ice cream balls at the same spot twice.
First one failed, second one crashed HAHAHAHA.
The ice cream hit his shirt instead of landing on the ice cream bowl.
Damn funny.
Shall bring more birthday babies there next time.

PS: I miss Taiwan :(

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ names make sense

2011-04-16T01:19:00.003+08:00

Something interesting that my sister and brother-in-law found out when they were fetching me.
My name is Alodie Tan Jia Wen.
English name is Alodie.
Chinese name is Tan Jia Wen 陈佳雯 Chen Jia Wen (pinyin).
Tan Alodie is Chen(pinyin) Alodie.
And Chen Alodie sound like 尘埃漏底.
Which means something like dusts drops on the floor.
Hmmmm, this is so true.
My room is always dusty.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ taiwan trip

2011-04-16T00:43:00.003+08:00

Packing luggage is a love-hate relationship.
I love it cause it means that i am going overseas (normally) soon.
I hate it cause i really am packing my luggage which is troublesome.

Went to Taiwan on the 6th of April to 14th April.
The main reason there is for Max Party, a dance showcase and battle event.
And the another reason is for relaxing and shopping.
The weather is super nice.
Stayed in Taipei for the first few days then stayed in Kaoshiung for another days then back to Taipei again for the last 2 days.
Both our hotels are very nice, not very expensive also.
East Dragon in Taipei and the 85 building in Kaoshiung.
The 85 building is literally 85 levels, we stayed on the 33rd.
It is a service apartment or something i think.
Each and every room has a special theme, which is super nice.
Spent lots of money, ate lots of food, but never shop much.
The thought of my luggage getting overweight seriously blocked me from buying a lot of things.
Idiot man, damn sad.
In the end my luggage weight has a higher limit then i thought so i ended up with super lots of space.

Max party is super fun!
The partying session is very interesting and fun too.
Especially when there is some unofficial waacking battle between Raizal and a Taiwanese guy.
Super dope and funny.
The showcases were really nice.
Lots of elite crews there are really good.
Some of the battles are really crazy too.
Learn a lot there.
Oh!!
And i went for Buddha Stretch's class.
Super hard to catch.
I can barely do the stuffs that he taught.
Super helpless.
Fun overall though i am struggling like mad.

Celebrated lots of Aries birthdays there.
Once every 2 days.
Pretty interesting and surprising.
Lucky Ceekay and Regina still have Elite Force Crew to sing birthday song for them.
Damn good.

Anyway, there are still many more interesting stuffs that happened there.
But too long already, lazy too write.
Love the people who went Taiwan with me.
Super fun and enjoyable, except for...
Love our Taiwanese friends there who took care of us really well.
Nice to meet them.
And Yanyan is super cute.
Hope to go there again, find them and shop again!!.
Oh yea.
And we all got a bunny back (Y)

Unpacking luggage is a hate-hate relationship.
I hate it cause i really am unpacking my luggage which is troublesome and irritating.
And it just means that my Taiwan trip has officially ended.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ if this is none of your business, then it is none of your business

2011-04-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

Seriously i don't get this.
Losing phone few times means that i am irresponsible i know.
But it doesn't mean that i am a irresponsible person overall.
I tried to cover my irresponsibility,
I tried to be more responsible.
But in others' eyes, i am forever a loser.
Now no matter what i do, i myself will feel that i AM a loser too.
Feeling like a loser, doesn't make me go any way.
If you all want me to stay like a kid forever,
Go ahead and make me feel like a loser everytime and keep tying me up in your way.
IF THIS IS WHAT YOU ALL WANT.

To my Jie if you happen to see this:
I've brought up your baby issue for a reason.
I am not saying that i hate your baby or it's fucking wrong of you.
I am not saying that i have a problem or anything too.
I am happy that you got pregnant.
I am happy that you got married.
I know that you love your baby very much,
I love your baby very much too.
Let me tell you a scenario.
Your baby is like My phone.
You got pregnant accidentally is like How i got my phone lost accidentally.
Both are causes of irresponsibility.
So now to make up to our irresponsibility,
You love your girl very much, I tried to take care of my phone very much.
But the difference is your baby is that big and my phone is that small.
What you did for your baby is very obvious.
Everyone knows that you want the best for her, want to take care of her very well.
And what i did for my phone, you never managed to see a thing, or should i say NO ONE ever sees a thing.
I may still lose my phone again but it doesn't mean that i never tried to keep it by my side.
Your girl may turn naughty one day, but it doesn't mean that you have never tried pulling her back to right track in the first place or she wouldn't turn good and lovely again right?.
NOW people are giving you a very good chance to take care of this lovely little girl very well,
But no one ever gave me a chance to make up to my other responsibilities.
Yes, maybe you can say, "you everytime get a new phone but you will still lose it".
But when i am given a task that i really need to complete, i will still do it.
Even TonyHo knows that i've changed, i'm changing.
But why can't you see it, my best sister on earth??
All you know are my bad, no one in the house ever knows what i'm good with.
No one have ever gave a chance.
I thought you are the one who understands me the most at home.
It turned up to be wrong.
I'm just stupid.

There are a lot of things that you all don't understand.

I always pushed the laoren's letters to you, why?
Not because i cannot read or i don't understand.
It's just because i don't wanna give wrong information to them.
I am not confident of myself.

I asked you about travel insurance, why?
I know how to buy but i know online stuffs need to pay by cards and i don't have it.
Of course if i really don't understand i will still ask you.
Cause you are one of the person that i need to learn things from.

Everytime when you're at home, you all will complain that i never wash plates and i disagree, why?
It's because other than dinner, i will wash my own stuffs.
It is just because you all didn't see it or maybe you all saw ONE of the times when i didn't managed to wash in time.
Then you all assume.

No difference from lao da.
If you remember the yakult incident which chased me out of the house.

I am trying to ask you to let go of me a little.
I will talk to you, find you if i have a problem or anything.
I will still love to talk rubbish or gossip with you.
Now that you are pregnant.
Neither do i want you nor your baby to get upset.
I tried to keep my temper, but you made me feel like you are 24/7 looking down on me just now (if you know when).
How can i be nicer to a sister like this?
I know you want me to make you trust me.
But sometimes information that you need 不是说要给就可以给的.
Phone number you want, i can give you.
But not now cause i need to confirm and check first before i make any extra steps.
I already told you that i will tell you once i've confirmed.
Afterall, it is not my number, you don't know the owners and the owners are not in Singapore.
Hotel and details you want, i can give you.
I've already told you what i know,
And i've told you that i will update you again when i'm being updated again.
Some stuffs 不是说要懂就会懂的.
I also need to wait for other people to reply.
And this doesn't mean that we didn't plan anything.

Why can't you just understand...

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random thoughts

2011-04-04T14:09:00.003+08:00

Wild guess.
When i die and got cremated,
My bones confirm is yellow in color.
Cause i've really consumed too much medicines le.
Especially this few days tsktsk.
Face medicines, neck medicines.
What's wrong with my head ahh.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ tsktsk

2011-04-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

It is really very unlucky some times when you wanna help others.
R's friend said that she have 2 tickets on sat.
Apparently we need 4 so i told her to get the 2 tickets for saturday ASAP and another 2 tickets for friday, in case anything happens, while i find for another 2.
I found 2 saturday tickets for our friends after a few days.
In the end, idk what happened.
The 2 tickets that R "bought" are gone.
-__-
And so.. our poor friends have to go on saturday instead.
I felt a bit guilty though.
Cause the saturday tickets that i got on my side initially are for them.
But well well...
It's better not to help other people in case suay-ness knocks on my door again.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ life update

2011-03-31T19:33:00.003+08:00

Oh yea.
My FYP supervisor called me.
He ask me to go back for FYP next tuesday.
To record all the relevant stuffs
So that when i come back for FYP on the 18th, I can continue doing the same project.
Woooots (Y)

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random lame talk

2011-03-29T00:31:00.004+08:00

I've been playing a game online recently.
Meetoto, a singing game.
You plug in your mic and you sing online.
Just like that.
I usually play at night, midnight after 11 plus 12.
Then suddenly today my aunties came to talk to me randomly.
Them: "Downstairs the neighbor crazy one, every day play music until so loud"
Me: "Hmmmm really oh? Around what time?"
Them: "Around 12 midnight lo"
Me: "................."
I guess i sang too loud and too nice. (Y)

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ huat ah

2011-03-27T22:51:00.004+08:00

Went for 1G's Waacking workshop today.
Siao ah!!!
Cannot catch, super fast.
Saw lots of dope waackers too.
Then erm..
1G is really nice!!
Unlike what she usually seems.
My body condition and technique really sucks.
Must train asap liao oh yea.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ floor the love

2011-03-27T02:29:00.004+08:00

Went for Floor the Love 2011 just now with not much feel.
But things turned up to be super fun.
And i think it will be a regret for not turning,
Though the tickets are expensive,
The judges a bit weird for some genres,
The organiser also weird,
The sound system also weird.
In conclusion, dancers make the event happen.

All the dancers today, seriously blew my eyes off.
Lots of super dope teams and tags.
Especially waacking and hiphop.
Super high.
Let's hope that one day i will be blowing other people's eyes away.
LOL!

Oh ya.
Congrats to Alex and Rachel for winning Waacking.
Congrats to Something else (from Korea, idk their names) for winning both Locking and Popping.
Congrats to Jeremy and Raizal for winning Hiphop.
And congrats to Tiev (from USA, idk if i spell correctly) for winning House.
Grats to all dancers too!!
Dope shit.!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ ok anyhow post

2011-03-27T02:23:00.006+08:00

Waaa very long never update my post liao.
Cause FYP is over, thus i am not THAT bored anymore.
Waahahahhaa.

Anyway, sometimes i think bangalas are very poor thing.
Cause while on the way home now.
I saw a group of 4 man separated into 3 groups trying to get cabs.
Apparently, i saw one cab immediately VROOOOOOOMM!!
Speed up the moment he saw them approaching and waving.
A bit LOL la.
But after i saw the fate of another taxi driver then thus, i feel that the first taxi driver is smart.
Some misunderstanding or what happened i think.
They talked so loud that i can hear even when i'm 4 lanes away.
But obviously i don't understand lol.
Anyway, one of them wanted to beat the taxi driver up.
Idk why, and idk how things end.
But that's a bit scary.
Hahahahaha.
Idiot.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ hmmmm

2011-03-24T00:17:00.004+08:00

Some times the person who looks the most bochup are actually the person who cares the most.

Lump on my neck ain't looking very good.
Lots of people are telling me that it look worse from the day i start the medication.
I chose to stay calm about it.
Then people are telling me that i look like i don't care about this lump.
In fact, i did.
Maybe because i am the one having this weird thing on my neck.
That's why i'm afriad.
I saw it's process of popping up, it's process of growing.
Now that it is super painful + itchy.
I am getting more and more insecure.
Keep asking my mother and aunties about the condition now.
But they seem to be confident that it is improving instead.
I want to get it scanned,
I want to get it removed.
But they are so confident that i also believe that it is improving.
In fact, all of us have no idea of what it is.
I don't wanna spend any much more money on medication already.
Now it looks like a big red pimple with white patches on it.
They are telling me that it is ready to explode.
All the don't know what thing will come out.
The day when it explodes, i swear i will cry.
Ok, maybe not cry but tear.
Now when a few drops of fluid exits i can feel the pain already.
Imagine if one day it explodes.
Wow, its gonna be hell.

Really hope that it will recover soon.
Like really soon, asap kind.
Nothing weird or extra about it.
After it recovers, it will be the end of its story.
Not end of my life cause i don't wanna die yet.
I wanna die with everyone on 2012 ya.
So good luck to me.

Trying not to waste any more money on medication already.
Cause my parents are not rich, neither am i.
From young i already spent lots of their money on medication.
My face, my face and my face.
And i am going Taiwan soon which needs another sum of money.
So ya, once again, Good luck to me.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ results

2011-03-23T02:57:00.003+08:00

It's 3am now and i am still awake.
Why Why WHY?!
Duh cause i am not asleep yet.
Why Why WHY?!
Cause i no need to wake up early tomorrow.
Why Why WHY?!
Cause no more FYP.
Fullstop.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ upset

2011-03-22T09:53:00.004+08:00

Last semester i was being called back from my attachment, all thanks to my results.
The same thing happened again.

Went to school early in the morning by cab for my fyp.
Received the bad news when i was in the cab.
Telling me that i failed one of the modules.
Apparently, it's the module that the teacher hated me the most.
I knew something else is gonna happen.
Went to get the key for my fyp lab and my supervisor showed me the email that he received.
His boss asked him to stop my project immediately.
Then my head goes, what the hell.
My project is already more than 70% done and i've been chionging the project last few weeks.
Though my attendance sucks and my punctuality also not very good.
But at least i produce work.
Even my supervisor, who taught me before, feels that i've changed.
And i can totally feel that he is very sad about me leaving also.
He keep saying "wasted, wasted, really wasted" at one corner.
But now because of this idiotic module, and the lecturer.
I have to retake again.
Sometimes i really feel that they did all these are for the school fees.
But i feel that the only reason i failed is because i never boot-lick the teacher.
Seriously, scientific proven that the teacher is bias.
Though i know that i sucks, my papers are confirm like shit.
Suan le, i think i am going to appeal for review or whatever.
If in the end i still fail and need to retake the module,
I just hope that i won't be under the same lecturer again.
*prays very hard*
And school fees are very expensive.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ i am still a human being

2011-03-21T09:28:00.009+08:00

I always believed that there are 2 ways of talking.
One from mouth, and one from heart.
Until now, i still believe that things work this way.
But i guess, everything has a limit in the end.

Jokes are supposed to exit from our mouths.
Even though jokes are meant to be a joke all the time.
But if a joke is being made too many times and every time,
Then things will be different,
Joke will no longer be a joke,
No longer be funny.
Then it will start to exit from the heart unknowingly.
One saying it may not feel that it is so,
But the one receiving it may not feel the same as before, when it WAS still a joke.

I'm a brainless person.
I don't know how to control my temper,
Don't know how to control my actions,
Don't know how to control my feelings,
Don't know how to control my laughter,
Don't know how to control my words.
I know i always hurt people unknowingly by saying some stuffs randomly when i don't even have an idea of it.
Meaning i often forgot what i've said.
This is me, I guess i'm old that's why my brains are like that.
So i know that other people are the same as me too.
They always say things randomly that can be hurtful to others without knowing it.
Thus, i chose to be ignorant.
No, maybe not to the extent of ignorant, like a bit serious LOL.
Maybe I just choose words and sentences, that sounds nicer, then take it to heart.
I am really fine with all those jokes made to me so far.
I said jokes, meaning those that are still within the limit.
And i feel that my limit is super high already, as a lot of people told me so.
People can joke about me and even myself feel that the joke is funny and started laughing the joke.
I swear i love the people beside me all the time and this is how we have fun with one another..
But sometimes words and ignorance are being taken for granted.
I swear i almost cried at that moment.
Cause i feel that people are not joking with me anymore,
I feel that i'm a joke instead.

Aiya whatever.
I still love my friends.
Love all the times that we have.
走一步, 是一步再, 看一步.
Hope things will turn friendlier.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ fly-away-very-quickly weekends

2011-03-21T09:28:00.003+08:00

FYP is seriously boring.
My brightest days of the week will always be on Saturdays and Sundays.
Even though sometimes, i just rot somewhere-at-one-corner but i still enjoy myself much.
Dance fiesta last Saturday and Home alone on Sunday.
Very usual and expected events but i really don't mind doing all these often.

Saturday's Dance Fiesta
Flair Bros won for the Street Dance Group category and,
Jin won for Street Dance Solo category.
Really happy for them.
Especially Jin cause he thought he no hope liao hahahha.
The prizes were damn good i swear.
Thousand dollars cash, Xbox 360 Kinect, one-don't-know-what player and a very nice trophy.
Anything else? I forgot.
But all these are good enough already.
Sunday's Home alone
Is purely about Qianqian and Xbox.
LOL.
Nothing i just played and slept for the whole day hahahah.
QQ took a small revenge on me though, that idiot.
But he is damn cute and funny, love him ttm.
Hahahha.

Love my weekends.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ random lame talk

2011-03-18T09:47:00.008+08:00

Lecture halls are @ Level 3.
My lab is @ Level 3.5.
A fixed place where i have lunch and breaks everyday @ Level 3.25.
Cause it is in the middle of the staircase from level 3 to 3.5.
The end.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ oh yea

2011-03-18T09:47:00.003+08:00

Hi everybody.
Wake up early in the morning feeling like sleeping~
Ok, i got my sim card back and a spare phone already.
Please text me, if you have my number, with your names.
Thank you very muchy.

I conclude that being in a lab alone rocks.
I can do whatever i want.
I just stick my eyelash.
And i just cut my nails.
(Y)

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ blog

2011-03-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

I think i want to add in one more slot.
Wishlist.
A place to spam all my nonsensical wishes.
And of course things that i wish to wish for.
Wahahahhahaha.
Ok shall do it tomorrow during fyp.
Since it is about html too, why not. LOL

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ routine life

2011-03-16T23:04:00.003+08:00

Basically there is nothing interesting to blog about recently.
Everyday, from Monday to Friday, i am doing almost the same few things, in sequence.
Morning wake up go school.
Reach school, go lab.
Reach lab, open lab.
Open finish, stare at my computers.
Stare finish, go eat.
Eat finish, stare at my computers.
Stare finish, go eat.
Eat finish, stare at my computers.
Stare finish, go shit.
Shit finish, go lab.
Reach lab, stare at my computers.
Stare finish, go eat.
Eat finish, stare at my computers.
Stare finish, close lab.
Close finish either go home or go block e smile awhile then go home.

Basically, it is like that everyday.
Aimless.
Not like few weeks back, super happening.
Non-stop events and gossiping.
Now it's dead, sian.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ thoughts

2011-03-16T15:44:00.003+08:00

Here is some random, irrelevant and stupid thoughts that i have after i've watched several videos about Japan's case.

I am a human being.
But i realised that i am a weird human being.
I've watched several videos about Japan these few days.
Everyone should know what i am talking about.
Almost all are about how bad the things are, how much the people are suffering.
Then i saw one video about 2 dogs in Japan.
My reactions for respective videos are a bit weird i think?
When i watch videos showing the tsunami, survivors and victims, i go,
"Omg, this so bad. Damn poor thing. Damn sad damn sad. I wonder if they are still ok."
Then when i watch the videos showing the 2 dogs in Japan, i go,
"OMGGGGGGG, THIS IS DAMN SADDDDD. *tear and cry* "

Hmmmmm, i don't know why but whenever i see dogs suffering i will go OMG(!!!) that's damn sad (really sad) then i feel sympathetic and emo awhile.
But when i see humans suffering i just go wow that's damn sad (really sad) then ok next topic.

Maybe it's because i really find that dogs are loyal friends, they are very nice although they bark or bite people. But i believe that they do things for a reason.
As for human beings, total disappointment. We may be helpful, caring or whatever at times but we cannot deny that everyone has a black heart and thoughts in their mind. Maybe it's because we are the smartest living thing on Earth?
I don't know.
I still feel that we are the most cruel bunch of living things.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ the lump

2011-03-15T23:12:00.003+08:00

Ok went to see chinese doctor today.
Missed my fyp too, cause of it.
Cui.
But my neck now is really getting painful, even just when i am turning my head.
The doctor doesn't look convincing at all though.
She say i cannot eat fried stuffs, spicy stuffs, sambal, balacan, pork, beef, chicken, lamp, eggs.
In conclusion, i cannot eat almost everything except plain porridge everyday.
Even vegetarian food contain those which she asked me to avoid.
A bit what the hell la, don't care.
She said that the lump most probably is infected so must avoid contact with ANYTHING.
And this is the first time i heard that medications can be applied OTOT.
They gave me this cream so i asked like how many times do i need to apply per day, cause there wasn't any instructions.
Then she said "Oh, you wanna put how many times also can, up to you."
Naise, i think my neck and the lump will most probably turn worse by the end of it.
Cui.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Japan

2011-03-15T01:46:00.003+08:00

Hmmm.
Japan was hit by a 8.8 earthquake and a tsunami.
It is really very scary when i heard and saw about how bad the disasters were.

The elder generations would say that this is karma la, retribution for World War 2.
Their descendants have to pay for what their ancestors have done to others.
I wouldn't deny the fact that i actually believe in Karma at times.
But for Japan's case, i have never hated them.
People who have done wrong are not the ones who are suffering in this natural disaster.
The people who were innocent of WW2, and contributed a lot to our technological development are the ones suffering instead.

Is this still Karma?
For my point of view, i don't think.
Cause they did not throw a bomb at us, so this tsunami ain't their karma or whatever.
They are purely unlucky i think.

Thousands of people still missing in action.
Even my favorite J-pop artists and Pokemon creator are missing too.
I am worried for them, worried for Japan, worried for the people there.
I'm afraid that another disaster will hit on them again.
This is taking way too many lives.
Damn sad.

I really hope that this natural disaster will be over soon.
And Japan will be back to normal soon.
We support you.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ my march

2011-03-13T21:55:00.002+08:00

I just realised that my schedules are freaking packed.
Every monday to friday, FYP the whole day.
At night maybe got dance or not.
Every saturday confirm got dance event.
Every sunday might have programs on too, otherwise finally a rest day.
Oh my tian, shag die.
I think i'm gonna die soon.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ days

2011-03-12T21:49:00.004+08:00

Attended first day of FYP.
And skipped 4 of the rest of the week.
No dance, no school, no nothing.
Eat, sit, eat, sleep, shit, eat, eat, sit, eat, sleep.
Non-stop eating and sitting.
Not alot of sleeping though.
Last day of the wake is .... idk what is the right word to describe it.
Throughout the whole funeral, there's a lot of dramas and politics.
Well, as long as there's human beings and money, there will be conflicts.
Some times i just don't understand where families have to 计较 about everything.
Even small amount of money like $2.
I don't get it.

My family is not rich, yes we are poor.
But we know that we have to do our part for the wake.
My father is the second son of grandmother.
There is still an elder brother before him.
But all the expenses are being forked out by my dad.
Even when my father's elder brother (长子) went to take away lunch for my grandmother which cost about $2 only.
He still wants to claim the money from us.
Everything is US US US.
"Hello? It's only freaking 2 bucks, you have no wife, no kids, no family or what so ever.
All you can do is smoke everyday."
And i heard that his cigarettes are quite expensive, $11 ++ per pack.
By the way he smokes like 2-3 packets per day.
And now the lunch pack is only like 2 dollars and you have to kpkb.
"Hello? The one who is lying there is your mother."
I don't understand why is he not paying anything at all.
My dad's sister not paying, i can understand.
But him? Wtf.
If he really no money then just at least pay a bit, 一个意思 what.
Now everything throw to us, preparations also.
We don't mind doing all these la, but at least show that they at least tried to contribute.
All they can do is, "aiya your this one not good la, that one not good la, the caterer's food very nice (when we feel that it sucks) can give us the number or not" again and again when we are busy settling the stuffs with the suppliers.
Brainless people seriously.
Anyway, the band that they found for the last day is cui.
We call them 走音大乐队.
Even if i'm a tone deaf, i will find that their music sucks.
Everytime off pitch, off timing, everyone playing different music.
Cui.com
Luckily it's over.

Seeing daddy and mommy crying is scary.
Rarely will see both of them breakdown until like that.
Especially my dad.
Anyway, on a lighter note, everything ends smoothly which is very good.
Everything is done properly.
Granny also very peaceful.
All of us calmed down.
Qianqian got his birthday present from me already, finally.
And (Y) to fyp.

Oh, the lump on my neck is getting bigger.
I think it's because everyone keep asking and talking about it at the wake?
And it's getting a bit painful now when i touch it.
Sian

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Rest in peace popo

2011-03-08T23:41:00.003+08:00

I see no bright future for my fyp.
Lost my handphone on my first day of fyp.
Lost my popo on my second day.

Popo is my father's mother, in order words, my grandmother.
I was never really close with her.
Cause i never live with my parents.
Neither did she lived with my parents.
She used to be more energetic and healthier when i was young.
But that was when i WAS young.
The amount of memories that i have, of her being healthy, in my mind is zero.
The moment i start to remember things, to have memories, she is not so healthy already.
She was senile, have 老人痴呆阵症.
Seriously, i have never heard her calling my name properly before, she always tend to forget our names, especially mine cause i met her for the shortest time.
She moved to my uncle's house for last than a year before she was being moved to elderly home cause everyone has to work so nobody is able to take care of her.
We will visit her a few times in a year, especially during CNY.

Before this year's CNY, dad told us that she could be leaving us anytime cause the doctor asked him to prepare himself as her condition has worsen.
We went to visit her during CNY.
She looked much better than previous.
And we were really relieved.
But suddenly everything got worse and now she's gone.
I am fine at first, but hearing that my dad cried in the morning, seeing my sis crying, and i saw her in the coffin.
The moment was wtf but she is smiling.
And i know i have to be strong.
Teared and wiped.
I used to be afraid of walking near the coffin area.
Cause i am a timid person, like always.
But today i stepped beside the coffin bravely and sat beside her alone.
Thinking of her smile,
I know she left peacefully.
All of us agreed that it is a form of relieved for her.
No more getting stuck in the bed not being able to move,
No more forgetting our names,
No more suffering,
No more pain.

Rest In Peace Popo.
Where ever you are, i hope you are happy and healthy there.
Loves.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Unlucky day

2011-03-08T01:38:00.003+08:00

Today i've learned how unlucky can an unlucky person be.
This whole long post is about how unlucky i am.
I need to rant.

Started the whole day with panicky mode.
Woke up late for my re-test for my repeat module.
Final exam.
Paper was at 0830, Latest must reach by 0900, I woke up at 0805.
My school is at Yio Chu Kang, My house is at bedok.
Cui ttm, even if i take a normal bus trip at 0800 to school without brushing my teeth, change my clothes or anything,
I might not even reach before 0900.
Almost gave up going,
But decided to chiong in the end.
This is the first time i took only 1 hour to prepare myself, bathe and everything and reach school.
I reached at 0905 though, then lecturer told me to write a report regarding why am i late (i didn't say the real reason though, cause if i did, i wouldn't be studying anymore).

Today is my FYP also.
The only thing that i know about my FYP was "Oh it starts at 0830 today, the end".
I don't even know where to report.
After my paper, i immediately chiong-ed to the noticeboard to see.
Cannot find anything cause i was too panic.
Then i dig my bag for my phone cause i remember asking Alvin to sms me when he knows how to check where to report to.
"Ok fml, my phone is not in my bag".
I officially lost my phone AGAIN.
I emo-ed awhile on a chair.
"Ok wth, my leggings is being worn wrongly, opposite side"
Desperately went to the noticeboard again to check thoroughly where to report to.
Ok, i admit that i'm blind.
Apparently the details have been there all along.
But everytime no matter how i find, i also cannot find anything.
I am not alone though, there's a lot of idiots like me.
Ok nehmind.
After that i went to my fyp room.
"Oh my tian, nobody is there, cui".
So i walked all the way back to the notice board AGAIN to check for my supervisor's room.
Ok i went find D first but she wasn't in her room.
Then another lecturer told me that both of my supervisors will not be free today cause they having some competition.
But he told me to go and find them at some lecture theatre.
And so, I went.

I finally found them.
Then D asked me to wait for them outside the lecture theatre then tag along with them later on.
Apparently, my niao hen ji, super wanna pee and the thought of "my pants are worn at the wrong side" makes me wanna go toilet more.
Ok so the dumb me went to toilet instead of waiting under the hot sun.
I swear i really chiong-ed there and went back to the under the hot sun.
Some students were outside, they know the students inside, when i came back the ones outside are still outside so i assumed that the ones inside with my supervisors are still inside.
And i happily waited outside the door, under the hot sun for super long.
Thinking that the briefing cannot be this long, i went to take a look.
"Ok fml again, they're gone".
I wanted to run but well, i went back to the noticeboard AGAIN to check for T's room.
Went to the area where my lab and his office is supposed to be.
Saw a Mr Ho. on the door so i thought it's his room.
Me: Can i speak to Mr. Ho?
Mr Ho: Er ya?
Me: Hi Mr. T.Ho, i am under you for FYP
Mr Ho: Er... I'm not Mr. T.Ho, his office is next door
"Ok damn paiseh can"
永不言败 spirit, i went to find his office.
On the way, LUCKILY i found them in MY LAB.
Ok so i wait, wait and waited for half an hour and finally they're out.
D: Actually you can go for your lunch already
"Nice one"
Went for lunch, went back to my lab, sit inside the lab play itouch and rot wile waiting for them again.
Finally they are done.
D: You can go and have your tea break already.
"Nice one again"
Ok finally SOMETHING.
Went to the lab, T came to brief me about my project.
Apparently i have to keep something really important.
He keep repeating about how important is it and what will happen if i lose it.
I was like O_O ok.
Then he said: If you anything happened, i will call you, give me your phone number.
Me: Er.... I just lost my phone today morning.
"Fml"
T: Then how are you gonna take care it.
And then he went talking about the same thing again.
I still don't know what i need to do for my project though,
But i know that i cannot lose anything.

Went to block E after that for dance practice.
Spilled my milo and i realised that the practices are tomorrow instead.
Fml muchy again.

Lazy to type already if not tomorrow cannot wake up then cui again.
Overall what i wanna say is,
I am really very suay and i really wanna type it all out to complain awhile.
I don't know if you understand what i'm saying but ya idc HAHAHAHA.
I just wanna complain.
Ok bye go koon liao, if not tomorrow lose something again.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ happy birthday

2011-03-06T22:28:00.005+08:00

This post is dedicated to my special boy.
Sweetest, cutest, most loyal boy in the world.
My Qianqian.

Today is his 4th birthday.
Wooohoooo!
Didn't managed to get him anything though, cause no money.
Hahahhaha, but i will get him a nice chain soon.
So he can go down and walk more.
He used to be 500g, now he's 4.5kg.
He used to be small, now he's oversize.
He used to have hair, now he's bald.
Qianqian's Growing Journey:

Happy birthday QQ!!
Luckily i still have you with me.
爱情

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ chill

2011-03-06T22:22:00.004+08:00

I always love to take breaks in between.
Or should i say,
I love to take breaks anytime, anywhere.
Chilling with friends, doing nothing and rot.
Is seriously very happening to me.

Dance fiesta, dinner, then walked around in Vivo and town.
Then me, Jin, KS and Weimeng went to Scott's place yesterday to stayover for Marvel alliance session and talking session.
Weimeng cannot stay over though, booking in on Sunday.
Kelian ah.
We didn't talk or play much.
But we ate and sleep a lot.
I can feel the fats in my body increasing.
Hahahhaha.
But nice food we have.
Very relax but very interesting.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ 闭关修炼

2011-03-03T23:28:00.003+08:00

For the past 4 days,
I never even stepped out of my house once.
Maybe i wanna go back to the kind of life i used to have.
宅女 style.
Feeling healthier and fatter.
Think my resolutions ain't gonna come true.

I've think a lot these few days.
Brain rest super well = can think better.
About dance.
Yea. I miss dancing hahaha.
A question to myself for quite some time.
What genre i wanna focus in.
Idk, maybe i'm born to be an indecisive person or maybe i just love all.
I just wanna be happy or enjoying when i'm dancing.
Otherwise, i will not want to dance anymore.

Hiphop.
Something that i've been doing for quite long.
But i'm still puzzled with the definition of the style Hiphop.
I feel very comfortable with some,
I feel super uncomfortable with some.
Idk what i'm comfortable with,
But i definitely know what i'm uncomfortable with.
Hiphop choreography 5050,
It's either i am comfortable or not comfortable.
Hiphop freestyle??
30% comfortable, 70% uncomfortable.
But to me, hiphop is like my root, like english.
Be it how comfortable or uncomfortable it is.
I will still do it, but i won't wanna make it my focus.

Locking.
Something that i really enjoy when i'm doing it.
Locking choreography is always fun to me.
Be it watching it or doing it,
I always feel happy.
But it's not something that i will move my hands or body immediately when i listen to funk songs.
I only feel free when i got the mood.
Which is bad.
Especially for locking freestyle.
When i got the mood i will keep doing it, be it how lousy it is.
But when i don't, i cannot even do a twirl nicely.
I may still feel happy but i feel disappointed (idk why) at the same time.
Like split personalities uh lol.

Popping.
Something that i was never into it.
But i always want to try it.
Regardless of where am i,
I will tend to move my body whenever i am listening to a popping song.
I feel free.
Definitely don't feel as happy as locking.
But i feel free and comfortable so now.
I wanna do more, but i'm just now there yet.

Waacking.
Something that i know i want to do.
I feel happy, i feel free, i feel comfortable.
Even though i know i suck,
But i will still anyhow waack whenever i hear that kind of songs.
Definitely not good yet,
But i wanna be better some day.

Reggae?
Something that i've done before.
Don't mind doing it again.
But not something that i would want to focus in.

Ok naggy.
Conclusion is.
Every genres are linked.
They help one another.
They are different genres because this way,
The type of dance can be identified easily.
Tadah, political answer but true in a way.
I will still do hiphop.
I will still lock definitely, cause i am really happy with it.
But would wanna try to focus on practicing waacking and popping first.
Then lock lock lock in my break or happy time.
And of course with some loklokdip.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ fated with my laptop

2011-02-28T22:49:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to my beloved laptop and Jiejie.

Hi lappie.
You've been by my side since 4 years ago.
I know you are old already.
There are many times when i noticed that you are hinting me that you wanna take a break.
Especially this year,
You went blackout once in awhile.
Even your charger went RIP.
But you never give this lousy owner up.
I know you got dozens of viruses inside you for years.
And they are still there.
I've never managed to clean every single one of them away.
On the other hand,
I always invite them into you unknowingly.
I thought i will lose you today.
But luckily,
I managed to find Jiejie's old charger which is supposed to gone, lost, spoiled, thrown away years ago, one day after her wedding.
Thank you you.
Thank you Jiejie for keeping her old charger this well.
That i managed to find it unknowingly when i was just too bored and randomly opened one of your drawers.
The other time we flipped your whole room over also cannot find.
This time round, 一开就中!!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Jie's Wedding

2011-02-28T00:46:00.003+08:00

Ok, the day before the wedding is SDD.
So i am feeling super cui right now.

Everything started early in the morning at around 5am.
I woke up late, obviously.
But still managed to get in time.
Hahahhaha.
All i can say is, 结婚真的很累.
I see how my Jiefu suffers when he came to fetch Jie.
I see how my Jiejie's smile turn square.
I see how my Jiejie kneel under knee cui.
I see how everybody keep driving non-stop here and there, there and here.
I see how all the brothers and sisters helped the couple.
I see how my parents panic here and there, then call everywhere and everybody.
But i also can see that my parents were really sad about Jiejie's getting married.
It's not that kind of really sad's sad.
But happy kind of sad.
I know that my dad almost teared hahha.
Afterall, she is there most beloved 大女儿.

I almost cannot tahan too.
Cause really about emo about Jiejie's moving out of the house.
After she moved out,
I can no longer go and steal her clothes and wear.
I'm unable to knock her door every night to gossip.
I can no longer quarrel as much with her.
I can no longer go out with her in the middle of the night to shop or to eat.
Nobody's there anymore.
But deep in my heart i know that,
I am really very happy for her.
I know that Wilson will treat her good and right.
He better be, if not i slap him.

A very happy wedding dinner makes the wonderful beginning of their combined lives.
Very interesting one too.
I realised that the singer that they hired was the boss of the sushi shop which used to open below our house LOL.
My cousin from mother's side became very crazy friends with my cousin from dad's side.
HOPE JIEJIE AND JIEFU WILL 幸福一辈子!!!!

Ok lastly.
My laptop charger is officially dead.
And Jie needs to take her charger back.
Doubt i will be online soon or often.
Sad.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ singapore dance delight

2011-02-28T00:40:00.003+08:00

Saturday was SDD's audition round.
SCRAABS did well.
Super happy for ourselves even though we didn't managed to get through to the finals.
A lot of people told us that we have break through.
And all of us were really enjoying ourselves on the stage.
We had fun, had no regrets.
Everything ends beautifully.

A lot of our friends went through to the finals though!!
I am really happy for them.
Everybody JIAYOU for the finals!!!
AHHHHHHHHH!!!
Hahahahhaa.
Didn't managed to go for the post party.
Cause i had a very bad stomachache.
Nevermind, there will always be another one yea!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ singapore dance delight

2011-02-26T01:57:00.003+08:00

SDD is tomorrow.
TOMORROW.
Suddenly everything seems to pass super fast.
Then i realised that we have never had a dinner together as a crew together before.
Everyone was having directions in the first place.
Some have other performance to do.
Some have other competitions to handle.
Some have other genres to train.
Every just came to the practices for the sake of going there.
No heart, no soul, no nothing, just physically there.
Though we are not as strong like Basics Five, Flair Brothers or 8th Avenue.
But i believe that we can do our very best tomorrow.
Cause this week,
We start to laugh together during practices.
We start to communicate better with one another.
We start to put our efforts and hardwork into practices.
We start to work together.
Although it's a bit late to start doing all these.
But i feel that it is never too late.
Maybe ya, SDD is tomorrow.
But there are still other competitions next time.
I believe that every crews have their own sour stories, experience during their first competition.
I don't know if this will be our first competition together or our one and only competition together.
Be it either, we will still enjoy ourselves tomorrow together.
Maybe tomorrow is our one and only competition together.
But let's make this one and only special.
Go SCRAABS.!! Jiayou jiayou.!!

And oh yea.
Apologies to Gem and Felicia.
Couldn't make it for your birthday celebrations.
Tomorrow is a big day.
And the day after is my sister's big day, her wedding.
Hope you all enjoy yourselves at the celebration.
Happy Birthday :))

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ love

2011-02-23T02:44:00.004+08:00

Love is too broad for me to understand.
One thing i know very well about it since years ago is...
It's very hurtful, tiring, waste of energy.
Luckily i am not a victim of it.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ animal abuse

2011-02-22T00:59:00.011+08:00

Seriously, what's with the fucking world nowadays.
Human beings killing each other.
Human beings abusing other living things.
Seriously, what the fuck.

Sis posted something about a pet's shelter called the Mdm Wong's Shelter.
I was damn curious and went to take a look.
It turn out to be a shelter for puppies and abandoned pets, mostly dogs.
Luckily there are still kind souls like them.
They take care of them and hopefully will help them to find a new home.
Then i became more curious and went to visit their online web.
And i saw something that really shocked me.
Really shocked, heart pain and i teared.
Believe me or not, look at these photos.

This is a dog. Yes, it is.
Her name is Wander, she was a stray.
As written on Mdm Wong's Shelter and Stomp.
Wander was being bashed on her face repeatedly with a metal chain by a China foreign worker.
Until her face became a mass of blood, flesh and skin.

What the fuck is this?
What if somebody used the same metal chain to bashed your bloody face up, how would you feel?
Seriously, i really don't understand what's with their mind man.
Didn't they have any feelings when the dogs were whining in pain??
The moment i saw the photo, read the story, 我的心很痛.
Arghhh.
Don't wanna talk about all these animal abusers le.

Anyway, Click >> Mdm Wong's Shelter to go to the page.
Ya, if any kind souls managed to read this or that or anything.
Please go to the web and take a look.
You may find your most loyal buddy over there.
Thanks lots.
Spread the love.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ addictive drama

2011-02-20T03:34:00.004+08:00

Been watching 爱似佰汇 recently.
It's a Taiwan drama, not like 爱 that kind, duh.
This show is way too strong.
Strong as in, i think i will kena diabetes after i have finished watching LOL.
The lines used were super duper mushy.
TMM TTM, Tian Mi Mi To The Max.
Damn mushy, way above normal human-can-take-it level.
Hahahhaa, but it is still a very nice show i feel.
爱似佰汇 came from a comic actually.
I've read it before when i was still in secondary school.
One of my favorites, so i was pretty happy when i know that they are filming it.
Oh yea oh yea~
Got free time can watch, will improve your 甜言蜜语 level.
LOL.!

Oh! Channel 8's weekday 9pm drama also very nice.
Rui en's character is super cute.
Luckily got catch up tv, cause everyday i will be dancing when the show is being aired.
Stay tuned.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ pro am

2011-02-19T00:44:00.003+08:00

Oh my tian.
Pro-Am is tomorrow!!!
I'm gonna die.
I'm suffocating.
Ok i am so dead.
Aiya nvm la.
Jiayou Alodieeee!!!!!

Anyway, i just realised that i am really careless.
My semestral project's report submission was last friday.
Last semester i failed this module cause i didn't submit the report.
This semester i forgot about the deadline again,
Luckily i suddenly out of no where remembered and went to contact my lecturer asap.
He nagged at me for quite long, but well..
I know it's my fault LOL.
And yea!! He allow me to hand it up this coming Monday by 10am.
Though it's like 1 week plus after the deadline.
Hen touched T_T.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ whats with the world right now

2011-02-17T17:26:00.003+08:00

No wonder 2012 is coming.
Was reading Stomp's courtroom then my eyes grew from small to big.
Countless cases of people raping one another.
Men rape women.
Women rape Men.
Men rape Men.
Women rape women.
乱七八糟.
Best part is...
There are numerous cases of fathers raping daughters.
Be it godfathers or real fathers.
I still feel that it is damn fucked up.
Although my family is a bit weird and zzz.
But at least it is still normal.
不幸中的大幸.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ oh

2011-02-17T16:17:00.003+08:00

Oh
And suddenly a lot people start to visit this emo blog.
Oh well oh well.
I've decided to do something bastardy.
But do not have the right time to.
Shall think it over again in case anything backfires.
For now,
Tomorrow's exam comes first.!
Huat ah!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ wo shi huai ren

2011-02-16T03:07:00.003+08:00

I am really tired.
Tired of all these shits.
Tired of people telling me that we are not good enough.
Tired of own people misunderstanding me.
Trying to help, but never good enough and it got worse.
Things done are not seen, things not done are being foresee.
Thinking moments within my own brain can never be delivered to others.
I was never a good person.
Neither am i bad until like some......... murderer who just killed 5 chickens.
I don't know why 5 chickens, but just 5 chickens.
Super tired of all these.
Leaving is not always running away from troubles.
Some times it just means that you are too tired to settle anymore nonsense.
And you know that when you leave,
Things will look bad at first but it will turn better.
If you think i am bastard then i am a bastard.
I don't have the energy to care about anything anymore.
So ya.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ my opinions about working in a team

2011-02-16T00:31:00.004+08:00

Hi.
I am being very serious here right now.
I think.?
Idk how to talk about this so i will just type.
Working in a team is never an easy task.
Cause everybody have different suggestions, different feel, different opinions or whatever.
But most importantly, i feel that...
Everyone MUST remember the fact that everyone just want to get things done in the best way, even yourself.
Words said, actions made may not be tactful at times.
But remember,
We are trying to get things done nicely here.
Not to talk super nicely to one another so that we won't hurt each others' feelings and we can waste more time on talking tactfully.
It's not like we are having a communication skills presentation, interview or whatever.
Being not tactful at times, or stoning doesn't mean that i do not respect the suggestion made from anyone.
It just means that me wanna get things done nicely too, just like you,
Or i am just stoning because i'm tired.
I mean,
Be professional.
If i tell you about my opinion of your idea,
It doesn't mean that i would kill myself if your idea is being chosen in the end,
Neither does it mean that i hate you, i dislike you, i wanna kill you, or you must use my idea if not you die.
I just wanna let you know about my opinion about your idea so that we can make things work better.
Of course it would be good if everyone have great ideas to share.
And because we should spend time on quality stuffs,
I feel that ideas provided should be described or showed in a proper way.
Things which are very confusing should not be just said in point form.
And when you are showing it, you make sure that you show it.
Don't just because we need to see it then you 随便应酬 us.
I need you to do it properly not because i want you to get injured or die.
I just wanna know if it is do-able and how does it looks like exactly.
Not to hear how it looks like for many times,
Cause i might not be picturing your idea correctly even after hearing it for dozen times.

In case if anyone who is reading it feels that i am talking rubbish or nonsense.
I just wanna remind you to read the title of this blog post again.
This is my opinions about working in a group.
Not yours, not his, not hers, not your mother's, not your father's.
It's mine ok.
Of course, every different teams have different ways of approaching.
Nice and tactful conversation every time will only occur when everyone in the team is like that.
Otherwise, it will be like what i feel.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ better not to say than sorry

2011-02-14T00:59:00.004+08:00

Some times are things which you really wanna say it out loud.
But it is really not easy.
Freedom of speech??
Not useful at all.
Things which are really affecting us are often kept secrets.
Like really secrets within ourselves.
Because you know that,
Things are gonna change after you've said it.
Because you know that,
Everyone's thinking differently,
And because you know that,
Truths are gonna face you, after you have said your piece.
So when everyone is afraid of saying facts,
Things get complicated, disappointing, confusing... and a lot more negative feelings.
Aiya!
Life is contradicting la!!

When you never tell anyone about how you feel,
People don't understand how you feel,
Then they start to guess,
Then they make assumptions,
And when you know that what they assumed is not right,
You tried to explain,
Then people will think that you are finding excuses,
And assume that their assumptions are right,
Then cause troubles for you and people who are around you.

But when you tell someone about how you feel,
Things will change,
Relationships will change,
Feelings for each other will change,
Things will get even more complicated,
Politics make it's grand entrance,
Surrounding's environment and atmosphere will change too,
Happy people become unhappy,
Happy people become happier,
Unhappy people become happy,
Unhappy people become unhappier,
Then 2012 will come,
Then everyone will die together.
Forget about hatred,
Forget about love,
Forget about life,
Forget about living your life.
End of everyone's life story.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ malaysia trip

2011-02-14T00:04:00.005+08:00

I'm back!!!
Malaysia trip was good, great experience..
Quite fun and funny on the last day.
Very tiring on the first.
DaMove, Kite and Aya were the judges of the night.
Special appearance from Mejia(Idk how to spell her name), from Osaka too.
DaMove laoshi is dope.
Kite is super shuai, cute, nice, friendly and dope.
Aya is super nice, adorable and dope.
And the Mejia is super cute, adorable and dope.
She is from Osaka and she is only 11 years old.
Super wow, amazing.

Anyway, me and Yihuan managed to get into the top 4 of hiphop category.
Supposed to be happy, but i really don't.
When we got into the top 8, we were really shocked and tired already.
Both of us really have no feel to dance at all.
But we have to.
I thought of having fun at the top 8 battle, and most probably will lose cause we really no feel, not cui, martin and waihoe was much better.
But 2 out of 3 judges voted for us instead.
We got into the top 4 with me feeling super shocked and stressed.
Cause i really feel that my standard of hiphop is really not there yet.
Never did i once got into the top 16 of a hiphop battle.
This is the 4th time that i joined a hiphop battle.
Maybe me and yihuan was just lucky, or maybe the others' aren't as lucky as us.
But i don't think that i'm prepared for a top 4 battle yet.
Very stress, don't know why.
And at that point of time i realised,
Freestyling hiphop?
Really not my cup of tea.
I'm doing it, but i'm not feeling right or very happy or enjoyed when dancing.
Dancing is not supposed to be like that.
I mean i will still do hiphop, i will still perform in hiphop items, but maybe i won't join as many hiphop battles already.
Maybe Getdown will be the last one.
We'll see how.
I felt bad for our Indonesian competitors, yihuan and all the people who were supporting us though.
Cause i gave myself up.
I am very sure that it wasn't my best, it wasn't even like that normal me.
I totally never put my heart in it.
Kite told us not to give up after the battle.
I won't give up dancing, but maybe i'll just surrender at the hiphop corner.
Well, i can find my concentration by then also.
Hope so.
Jiayou Alodie :D

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ huat ah

2011-02-11T13:36:00.004+08:00

Shall post one last post before i get out of my house.
Going Dori's house today!
Going Malaysia tomorrow!!
Woohooo.
For 2 days, 1 night only.
But my luggage is freaking big.
All thanks to the shoe,
My smaller luggage all cannot fit, too small for it.
Thus i have to get a super duper big luggage for a 2days 1night trip.
Oh yea.
It's not that the luggage is very big,
It's just that the luggage is over-sized for a 2days 1night trip.
Oh well...
I would rather drag a super big luggage than to carry a big and heavy bag.
I'm a lazy girl.
Anyway, one cute and white thingy was found sleeping in my over-sized-luggage-for-a-2days-1night-trip.
Evidence recorded as below.

This is my super duper over-sized luggage bag for 2days 1night trip.

Er... come to think of it...
The bag really looks very big.
Shall think of an alternative. LOL

Anyway, QQ is damn cute.
Love him.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ malaysia trip

2011-02-11T00:38:00.003+08:00

Ok.
Tomorrow gonna move our stuffs to Dori's place lo.
Going JB the next day for WeLoveDance battle.
Looking forward to the battles,
Looking forward to Kite,
Not looking forward to the performance.
Kinda nervous about it, cause things are not really done yet.
Well, but we will try our best ahhh!!!
HUAT AH!!
Hao gonna pack my luggage liaooozzxczxcz.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ valentines

2011-02-10T01:58:00.003+08:00

I just realised that the day after i come back from Malaysia's performance is Valentine's Day already.
Well, guess i will be celebrating valentines alone again.
Most probably.
At least celebrating alone on Valentines is better than,
Celebrating Valentines with the wrong Valentine.
So ya.
I am still waiting for my right one to come.
:DD

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ this is badddd

2011-02-09T00:02:00.003+08:00

I am having fever ah!
Malaysia performance this week.
Need to practice.
SDD coming.
Need to practice too.
Presentations and lab test this week too!
Oh my tian.
Bad timing to get sick.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ time

2011-02-08T01:48:00.004+08:00

If only i can buy time, it will be super good.
I need more time man!
Malaysia's performance is this saturday and the thing is still cui.
Tomorrow cannot have practice cause SDD is coming in 2 weeks time too.
So need time to chiong SDD also.
Omg, and my presentation slides and report still cui.
Idk how am i going to survive man...

Anyway, WEIMENG is entering NS tomorrow with his botak head.
All the best you ah meng!!!
We love you and will miss you de.
Oh yea oh yea~

PS: I conclude that i am an emo girl.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ karma

2011-02-08T00:34:00.003+08:00

Wo de karma lai liao.
Every time oversleep, late for school.
Then go and take MC.
Sunday's night wanted to chiong my Monday's presentation slides.
In the end i KO-ed.
Woke up late with my presentation slides not done.
So i decided to go and scam for a MC.
Thought that i was just having sensitive nose, as usual.
In the end i was really having fever.
LOL.
Feeling damn cui during dance practice but managed to survive.
Hen hao, hen hao.
Crew practice tomorrow, hoping for a good one.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ title idk what to put la

2011-02-07T01:17:00.003+08:00

Seriously i'm gonna go crazy.
Feeling super no mood now.
QQ injured, i super worried.
Irritated by mother.
Work not done.
My presentation and report submission is tomorrow.
I totally don't know what to write.
Ask jonathan how many pages he got.
He said currently 12 pages.
CURRENTLY. omg
I only have like 4 pages now, including my cover page and content page.
And i am stuck!!
Presentation slides need to re-do everything.
Omg, i'm gonna suffocated.
Stress until i cannot think of anything le.
Totally don't know how to do anything, no mood to do everything.
Super stucked.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Qianqian

2011-02-06T22:19:00.006+08:00

My Qianqian is injured...
My sweet boy boy is injured...
I feel super sad now i swear, feel like crying.
Some times adults are really irritating.
They just do what they want and don't even give a damn to others' feelings.

Parents came just now.
Qianqian happily run towards them to greet them.
And he ended up knocking his head on the chair.
Small knock i know, he always knocked his head on something.
But this time round he screamed until super loud.
I came walking towards him and he quickly ran towards me for hug.
Hugged him into my room to cool him down while i am doing my stuffs.
Cause i can really feel that he is feeling super afraid.
Then comes my mother, super stubborn.
Insist of bringing QQ to another place no matter how me and QQ reject him.
I admit that i'm feeling pissed already.
Then QQ came running back to my room after she put him down.
Carried him for awhile then i bring him to sleep beside me while i'm having my break.
Then here comes my mother again.
QQ is already fucking tired, and i can totally see that he wants to sleep in my room instead.
But she insist of carrying him to my godma's room to sleep.
He keep growling and growling, but my stubborn mother still drags him away.
Now the accident happened.
QQ accidentally got one of his nails stuck into my mother's bracelet while struggling.
He wanna jump off from her, she don't know how to handle it properly.
Then QQ's nail kena pulledoff instantly.
When i went to find him.
His finger was bleeding, lots of blood.
I can totally see his flesh and smell blood.
The dumb boy keep licking his bleeding finger and my godma's clothes where his blood stains were at after she carried her over from my mom.

I seriously feel that some times adults should listen to us instead.
I know 姜是老的辣 but some times the things that they say are not exactly right.
It is just because that they are stubborn, and always think that they have more experiences and always right.
Then it leads to accident.
Qianqian is my closest family member, other than my sis.
Everytime he will accompany me through the night, or when i'm sad.
When i cry, he will come and lick then sit by my side.
But when he's injured, idk what to do.
Freaking useless Alodie.
Freaking irritating people.
The best part is, my mother looks super fine and ok after the incident.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Chinese New Year

2011-02-06T15:51:00.003+08:00

I think my 2011's Chinese New Year should be ending here.
Doubt there will be anymore visitings.
Overall, i had fun.
Like super fun.
Day 3 and 4 @ Scott's place.
The new game he bought for his Xbox is super fun.
Mahjong also super fun and funny.
The brunch was good, like super good.
Hahahahaha.
Love the mood, the atmosphere for every single occasions so far with all of them.
Looking forward to the next one!!!
Oh ya, and looking for to the Malaysia trip for WeLoveDance battle.
Oh yea oh yea oh yea!!!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ song stuck in my head

2011-02-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Chinese New Year

2011-02-04T22:53:00.004+08:00

Currently day 2 of CNY 2011.
GONG XI FA CAI EVERYONE!!
Woohoooo!
Ang baos this year are kindly donated to the Taiwan Max Party's Fund.
Oh yea.
This is the last year that my jiejie is gonna stay @ papa's house with me.
Feeling kinda lonely cause i am afraid of that empty room at papa's.
Well, no choice.
But she said that she will come back next year and stay for a night with me though.
Well, but who knows lol.

This year's Chinese New Year events are like the others.
Not much, difference.
Except for the trip to korkor's house on day 1.
Cause he's leaving to work at USA for 1 and half year from feb 12.
So, he had a farewell party at his house.
Oh and my future-Jiefu stayed @papa's house with us for one night.
Cause his car died at our house downstairs.
Kind of lucky though lol.
Oh ya! And a new family added!
@ cousin's house, Colby aka the Shetland Sheepdog.
Hahaha! He is super hyperactive!!
And non-stop harassing QQ's ass.
Hahaha damn cute, damn funny the both of them.

Hmmmm.
I kind of unhappy with some stuffs happened just now though.
Some idiotic arrangements.
I seriously dislike visitors who are not welcomed.
Especially those thick skinned cheena people.
Like literally cheena.
I'm not against them as a whole.
But i am just against with the ones who came.
Well, what to do.

Looking forward to tomorrow's Singapore World Tour!!!
With the ones that i am always with.
Feeling excited for it!!
Hope it will be a good one :D

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ song stuck in my head

2011-02-01T23:34:00.004+08:00

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ Hmmmm

2011-02-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

Wondering if this is over,
Will we still be the same?
I doubt so.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ traditions

2011-01-31T00:32:00.003+08:00

My family of 4, Papa, Mama, Jiejie and Me.
Always have this tradition, happiest moment of the year.
Every time before Chinese New Year we will go to the nearby NTUC and shop.
Jie and i will each hold a basket or trolley.
Walk around the NTUC happily, planning what to eat or buy.
Pama will always be there finding their favorite nuts.
After we've bought everything,
Pama will go home, Jie and me will walk to buy ice creams and walk back home.
This month, Jiejie is getting married already.
I wonder if there is still this shopping spree going on next year.
I wonder if there is anyone walking back home with me next year.
I wonder if there is anyone sleeping beside me @ Pama's house next year.
I am afraid to decide on what things to buy, alone.
I am afraid to walk back home, alone.
I am afraid to sleep in the bedroom, alone.
Today is just another day when i think or feel too much.
I think because i'm tired.
CUI.
School tomorrow, sucks.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ partehhh

2011-01-31T00:22:00.003+08:00

The drinking party yesterday @ KS's house was wooooooooooo!
Happening LOL.
The thing that is interesting is not the party itself i think.
Is the post party syndrome, where people all get drank. LOL
Super funny but a bit scary or serious at times though.
Anyway, i think we've created a mess at KS house.
So, apologies and great thanks to Grand Senior KahSing.
LOL.
Didn't managed to sleep though.
I was the champion of the night cause the rest of them KO-ed.
But feeling super cui after that.
Slowly slowly, one by one take turn to go home.
The few of us who left later when to have brunch.
Super filling until i full daoooooooo almost faint.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Went to walk around, quite chill but having fun.
So overall, Bravo Bravo.!
Cui day, not enough sleep, too many things going on.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ blog visitors

2011-01-29T00:51:00.004+08:00

Apparently.
When i was looking at the last visits section for my blog.
I was a little shocked.
Visitor from Malaysia.
Hmmmmm.
And the region is somewhere,
Where it has something that i used to feel happy about.
Hmmmmmmmmmm.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ partehhh

2011-01-29T00:48:00.001+08:00

I feel very excited for the drinking party tomorrow.!!
Although i don't drink much.
But i am really looking forward to it!
Woohoooo!!

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ report

2011-01-28T00:24:00.003+08:00

Oh my tian.
I am going crazy!!!!!!!!!!!!
Useless brain, totally cannot think of anything.
Totally have no idea of how to type the report.
Omg, this is bad.
Stress ttm.

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ song stuck in my head

2011-01-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

.x.o.x.o.
AlodieT

/ hardworking girl, not

2011-01-27T23:24:00.004+08:00

I admit that i'm a lazy girl.
Neither am i a hardworking girl.
Repeated module's project submission tomorrow.
Word count for report is still ZERO.
And i am here, blogging.
Repeated module sub test paper tomorrow.
Topics studied for paper is still ZERO.
And i am here, blogging.
No motivation, no nothing.
I just hate school work.
But i still got to do it, cause school is a NEED, not a WANT always.
Idiot.

/ encouragement

2011-01-25T01:01:00.004+08:00

No matter at which point of life.
An encouragement is always helpful.

I really appreciate when people walk over to me and tell me that they liked my performance.
I can really feel the warmth and encouragement.
3 people came up to me during YOG.
1 group came up to me during production.
And lots of my own dance mates telling me that their friends enjoyed my dance.
I really appreciate all these.
Cause i believe without all these, I wouldn't know how much i have grown and i might just give up anytime.
Thanks to all of them,
I told myself to grow up more and don't stop dancing,
I know that i should be more confident and daring on stage,
I believed that i once exist in their eyes be it if i know them or not.
This is really a great achievement to me.
I won't want it to just stop here.

/ relationships

2011-01-25T00:24:00.004+08:00

People around me are having lots of relationship problems recently.
Be it sweet or not so sweet.
I can totally feel the love in them.

Sis is finally getting married.
She has found someone who really loves her.
Phy finally falls for someone.
And the guy do have feelings for her too.
Really happy for them.
But take a look back at myself.
It's been a long time since i last fell for a person.
Maybe because i am just too afraid to cry again,
Maybe i'm just not prepared for heartache moments,
Or maybe i just feel that being alone is just better.
The time is just not here yet, i think.

But i just can't stop thinking.
What is gonna happen to me in the future.
Hahaha.
Curious mode on-ed.

/ opportunities

2011-01-23T00:19:00.004+08:00

Hmmmm.
I think i just gave up mine.
Regarding a rare opportunity to perform oversea.
Well well, i even got my passport renewed for this.
And was super excited for it.
But idk why.
Sometimes i will feel that i should give others a chance instead.
Cause i think im just not as good enough yet.
A bit sad about myself making this decision.
But yea.
I dislike to see too many unhappy people beside me.

/ dance

2011-01-22T00:59:00.002+08:00

Ok.
Juste Deboute is tomorrow.
As in later.
EXCITED AH!!
All the best to everyone who is joining!! :D

/ thoughts

2011-01-20T22:46:00.003+08:00

Hokay.
I think i really think too much.
Dumb Alodie.
Juste Deboute this saturday.
Jiayou everyone.!!

/ swings

2011-01-20T01:43:00.003+08:00

I can do swings very well recently, mood swings.
And i hate it.
Because of that i keep having unnecessary disagreements with my mates.
Super rawr!
Just gotta apologise every time after i'm awake.
Well.
Cause i know i'm at fault.

Anyway, because of this, i can really feel the love from my friends.
Really happy about it.
At least i am not THAT alone.
Love you guys.

/ Unfair

2011-01-18T17:31:00.006+08:00

Life is fucking unfair.

I admit to things that i have done wrong.
But saying that my in-class attitude is bad.
Is fucked up.
I did all the assignments she told us to do.
I took down the notes that she wrote on the board.
While her "hardworking" students play in class, talk in class, eat in class.
So in the end, i am the one with bad in-class attitude instead?
Wtf?
I have doubts about my own work.
I showed and asked her.
She said: "This one you copied from others right.".
Wtf?
Hello Mdm, your favorite student is playing itouch in class, walking around the school to have self-given breaks during your lesson, never do his work, keep asking others to help, copy others' work.
But in the end i am still the bad girl.

Life is unfair.
Like totally.
I totally don't feel like being in the class anymore.
Thank you very much, my "best" teacher ever.

/ hope

2011-01-18T01:11:00.003+08:00

I really hope that there is a hope that it is me.
Sounds chim but ok.
But i doubt it will be me.

/ shock

2011-01-18T00:46:00.003+08:00

Ok.
I think i'm crazy.
But i am a little bit or too shock yesterday.
I super duper happy that my sis is getting married.
Though i may feel a bit more lonely.
But i am really happy for her.
HAHAHHAA.
I was really in shock yesterday.

Anyway
Submissions of projects, battles, competitions and CNY are all coming at one shot.
So scary, so stress.
Oh my tian.
Gonna Jiayou.!

/ family

2011-01-16T22:54:00.004+08:00

My one and only support from my family is going to move.
Sad.
She's the only one who understand me very well at home.
My feelings.
My thinking.
The situations that i'm in.
Now that she is moving out soon to her husband's.
I can really feel the coldness at home.
But well.
really feel very happy about her getting married in a month time.
I really want to see her doing well with her life.
Best Wishes to my lao jie.
Loves.

/ together

2011-01-15T01:04:00.003+08:00

Being good friends and working together is a totally different thing.
I am really afraid that some things will affect our friendships.
I do treasure you friends yo.
But working together is seriously tricky.
So stress, so scary.
Oh my tian.
Guess everyone needs to talk soon.

Anyway.
Juste Deboute is next Saturday.
Oh my tiannnn.!!!